I am incapable of love
He broke me down that much
The simple thought of love scares me
No longer can I look at another man
Even though the one I wanted first, finally wants me too
It feels like I’m a super villain
Leading him on
Knowing what I know
Every time I look at him I think of my previous love
Whenever he touches me I wish that instead of him, it was my previous love
With every kiss that’s planted on my face, I imagine the taste of my previous love
He confesses his love to me, but in my mind i can only hear the “I love yous” of my previous love
What’s the matter with me ?
At last, the one I wanted, wants me
But the one I need, no longer needs me and that’s all I think about
It’s as if I committed a crime
I ran away with his heart
Then just vanished
He was expecting reciprocity
But all I did was rob him
Rob him of the chance of real love
I’m in too deep
I wish I could take it all back
No matter what I do, I always manage to mess it up
My wildest dreams came true
I got him
The one I had a crush on all these years
This is the kind of thing that only happens in movies
He chose me
But I can’t return the love
All the love that lived in my heart, is now gone
A vacant heart due to foreclosure
It was all used up
The payments grew to be too much
Love doesn’t dwell in my heart anymore
It’s still hitchhiking waiting for my previous love
Wishful thinking
My love is rebellious
One day I hope it returns home
So it vacates the heart of my potential love
Time is running out
I don’t want to break his heart
I don’t wanna ruin love for him, like my previous love did to me
That is a pain that never goes away
A scar that never heals
A memory that doesn’t fade
Never did I imagine that I would be as cruel as my previous love
Damaging others like he did to me
How does one become so cold ?
The guilt is eating me alive
Why can’t I return the love ?
Every day I grew more numb
Love is no longer a commodity I can give out
All thanks to my previous love
He continues to complicate my life
Even when he’s long gone
My potential love is blindly facing the consequences of my previous love
He never stood a chance
I wanna keep my eyes closed
I don’t wanna see my potential love crumble because I am incapable of love
Please know that I’m sorry
I never meant for this to happen
One day I hope you receive all the love you deserve
If not from me, from another woman
Because you deserve nothing but the best kind of love
The kind that you get back
You’re my best friend
And once you discover these words on this page
I understand if you never speak to me again
All this is my fault
I hope we continue being friends
Honestly, I don’t know what I would do without you
You know my darkest secrets, but you still look at me as if I am perfect
Even though I’m far from it
It kills me that instead of repaying you for all that you’ve done for me
I’m breaking your heart without you even knowing
Please forgive me
That day might not be today or even years from now
But the thought of you hating me hurts me beyond belief
Deep inside I know this could have been a beautiful love
One never experienced by no two people before us
Or one that won’t be experienced long after we’ve both perished
Our potential love couldn’t have ever been duplicated
But my previous love ruined all our chances
Because his footprints are still visible in all areas of my heart
His presence still lingers inside of me
We can’t experience our potential love
All because I’m incapable of love